Behind My Red Door

Behind My Red Door

Sunday, June 28, 2009

An Emotional Journey....

I have been told that some Grammy's get pretty emotional after their grandchildren are born and that has been true Behind My Red Door. To be honest, I have to say it started long before Liliana was born. We can go way back to the day Jay called to say Angela was pregnant. I won't even tell you where I was sitting when DH handed me the phone because Jay couldn't wait to tell me something! Good thing I was sitting down! And then when we found out it was a girl. Oh and then it was very emotional when we went to the 3d Ultrasound and saw our sweet Liliana for the first time. My emotions were overflowing, when I was in the stores looking for just the right things to bring to the baby shower. Or how about when I was making a card to have ready to bring to the hospital when she was born. And you should have seen me in the restaurant when Jay called on the 18th to say that Angela was in labor! LOL I can only imagine how crazy I looked! Jenn knew something was up just by the look on my face.
And then there was that first time I got to hold her in my arms. I felt my heart swoon! I told her that I loved her right up to the moon and back.

And now I get so emotional when I see a new picture of her, or better yet hold her, or hear my son say "isn't she beautiful?" Just the other day when I was picking out a porta crib for our house - I could feel the emotions welling up inside me. And then when the mail came the other day, well the flood gates let loose. Look at some of the pretty cards we got congratulating us on our new grand daughter. Each one means so much!

And I got teary again when I opened this package from Sherrie, who is one of my followers and lives in SC. She is a Grammy too and she told me she saw something when she was at the beach and she just had to send it to me. Look at this pretty this bag...
And lookey here.... isn't this the most darling thing you ever saw?? L for Liliana!! What is it? I hear you asking.....
A burp cloth!! Isn't that the most clever idea! I mean if a sweet little girl is going to do something as indelicate as burp and spit up, she might as well do it in style. And look what Sherrie wrote... "because spit happens!" Isn't that the cutest?
So I was already blubbering and then I unwrapped the second package and Niagara Falls let loose! Look at the PERFECT book she got me!! Remember Mama duck hatching her eggs right by our front steps? Well Sherrie thought this was just right for me to read to my "little duckling". And it is. I LOVE books and this one will hold a place of honor in my library. I am going to print out the pictures of Mama duck and the eggs and tape them inside the cover of the book to show Liliana some day.
THANK YOU so much Sherrie. You really touched my heart with your thoughtfulness and kindness.

And then when we got home from visiting this sweet little bundle of pure joy the other day,

Grampy noticed a box tucked near the front stairs. I was expecting something else, but when I opened it, I was pleasantly surprised to find there was a note for me from my sweet friend Carol, and this pretty wrapped box for Liliana! What fun! Because the kids were coming on Saturday, I decided to wait and let them open it.
They were delighted to find the softest and prettiest little sleepers you ever saw and they match the nursery too! The bottom set has snaps all the way down the inside of the legs and can be used as a sleep sack or sleeper with legs. It is so cute! Liliana is going to look so pretty in these. I wish I had jammies this soft.

Thank you so much Carol and Jerry. It meas so much that you thought of our Liliana.

And Saturday was a pretty emotional day for other reasons as well. It was the day Liliana got to meet my parents, her great grandparents for the first time.
But she didn't make it easy. Our little bundle of love slept soundly for the first hour. My mom was ready to climb in the car seat with her and just start loving on her! And I was too!

Finally, Liliana was in her Great Mamma's arms, and it was love at first sight!And Liliana seemed to enjoy Great Bampa's soothing voice. There are only 87.5 years age span between these two after all!
Yes, it certainly has been an emotional journey, and one that I am thrilled to be taking.
I can't wait to see you tomorrow Liliana. Grammy loves you right up to the moon and back!

Until Next Time - Hugs, Grammy Linda
PS a special congratulations to our dear friends Pat and Joe down in PA. They too became grandparents for the first time yesterday. Please give Kat, Brian and baby Benjamin hugs for us!!

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Assembly Required

Grammy alert!!

Baby pics ahead just because I can!!
It just feels so good to hold this sweet baby. I could hold her all day. She feels and smells so good. And she is opening her eyes more. Here she is on her changing table. Jay says Liliana does not like diaper change time!! She is very loud I am told. hehehe Like her daddy when he was little? What is they say about grandparents revenge? hehehe
Her daddy took this next picture and sent it to me to thank me for doing some grocery shopping for them. I have it as my external wallpaper on my phone now. It looks like she is trying to talk. She does squeak though. I almost forgot about those cute sounds babies make when they are so young.

Just as content as could be in her other Grammy's arms. This baby is very loved!
Liliana, Grammy Linda and grampy David love you right up to the moon and back!

Now for the title of my post. Assembly required. Those two words are feared by parents (and grandparents) across the globe. It is another thing I almost forgot about babies - assembly required. LOL It came right back to me today though. Instead of prim shopping, I did something even more fun - yes MORE fun than prims. I went shopping for my sweet Liliana. I was in search of a portable crib so that we have a comfy place for Liliana when she spends time at Grammy and Grampy's. I was just amazed at the new versions these days. Gone are those old wooden slated ones. So many styles and colors to choose from and some of them are so elaborate! And the colors and patterns. I settled for this convertible version.

It took me awhile but I got it all together. What amazes me is that for something with 10 billion safety warnings, they don't make the assembly instructions very clear. Not the words or the drawings! And I am the queen of visual stuff but they had even me stumped for awhile. If it needs to be put together just soin order to be safe, then make the instruction more clear Graco!!

Right now the bed is up high like a bassinet and later I can move it down to safer level when Liliana gets more active. It can be used as a playpen as well.

And it has this neat changing table built in too. I don't know how practical it will be when she is older, but it will work for now. I am sure this is old hat to many of my followers who are parents and grandparents but I was just amazed !! I wanted one of everything!

I have the best friends! Last Thursday I was about to have dinner with my friend Jenn, when Jay called to say Angela was in labor. We quickly left the restaurant without ordering, but before we said goodbye, Jenn gave me this gift for Jay and Angela.
She made them all these gorgeous had stamped thank you cards. This one on top is my favorite! Isn't that stamp adorable?

Each one is different and so detailed!
Jenn has her own blog, Stampin Angel Jenn, so named because she too angels patients with cancer. In fact that is how we met and became friends. Stop by her blog and see some of her other card creations. And Jenn is a Stampin Up Demonstrator if you need any Stampin Up supplies, just holler. She is cool - she doesn't hound you like some other demonstrators do!

Thanks so much Jenn! I know the kids will love using them.
I am looking forward to our rescheduled dinner tomorrow evening! We have so much to catch up on - even more now!

I have to give a woohoo to Dawn over at Holly Hills Primitives. Her sweet grand daughter Lucianna was born yesterday. Congrats to the whole family Dawn!!Lucy is just gorgeous! How sweet to see Abbey holding her. Enjoy your newest grandchild!!

That's about all from Behind My Red Door today. I was hoping to have some garden pics to share as well because my garden is usually so pretty this time of year, but with rain for days and days on end, the garden is pretty wilted. Anything that blooms is rotting away. So sad. It is still much cooler than usual too. Almost July and the a/c has been on rarely and usually only for a short time- more to dry out than cool off. In fact I actually made Chicken Pot Pie for dinner. At the end of June. Pot Pie! Unheard of! Even I am ready for some sun and heat and I NEVER say I want heat! LOL The latest forecast says we may get some sun tomorrow. I hope so because it is time for my daisies to bloom. My favorite flower! And isn't it funny how the sun coming out coincides with golf night! Come to think of it, the last time we had even a few hours of sun was last week when DH had a charity golf tournament. Humm......

Until Next Time - Hugs, Grammy Linda

PS - our friends over at A Primitive Place now have a blog. Stop on over and sign up to be a follower!

Sunday, June 21, 2009

A Special Day Indeed!

Not only is this Father's Day, and the day Liliana goes home to her pretty lilac room and gets to meet Brady too (oh would I like to be a fly on the wall when he sees and HEARS HER!) but it is also our 34th Wedding Anniversary. On a very hot and humid day, 34 years ago, David and I said our "I dos" in front of family and friends. We dreamed of the future when we would be own our own home, which we did less than 2 years later, then become parents, 2 years after that and then grandparents - 30 years after that! Yes, this week we can say our 3 big dreams came true!

Happy Anniversary and Happy Father's Day Grampy! You are a great dad and amazing husband and I am so blessed to have you in my life. I could list the many wonderful traits you have and the way you have always provided for us and taken care of us, but I think the best compliment and the simple truth is that Jay could not have a better role model as he starts his journey as a dad. He has learned from THE BEST. 143-734 I look forward to celebrating over a nice dinner out for just the two of us when things settle down a bit.

Grampy and I had some wonderful time with Jay, Angela and Liliana at the hospital yesterday before anyone else got there. Grampy got to sing to his new grand daughter, just like he sang to his babies many years ago. I can tell she already has him wrapped around her pretty little pinkies!!

And Liliana just had to come early so Jay could celebrate his very first Father's Day right away. I think she has him all wrapped up too! Happy Father's Day Jay!! We are so very proud of you and so excited for you too. We know that you are already an incredible daddy, making sure your family is loved, safe and cared for even before Liliana took her first breath of air. Enjoy this special time and all the wonderful years ahead of you!

And I want to wish my dad a very Happy Father's Day as well. I can't wait until you and mom can meet Liliana!! For now, have fun with Allan, Cindy and Gracie and I'll see you soon!

Happy Father's Day Dad Rudman! We are all looking forward to your trip home in a few weeks. I know Grampy David can't wait to introduce you to his first grand child. In the meantime, enjoy the Open today and your time on the links!

After we left the hospital yesterday, Grampy and I shopped, cleaned, cooked and did some laundry for the kids - all the things they planned to do this weekend. Grampy then spent the night with Brady so Jay could spend the night with his family in the hospital - just the 3 of them.

Thank you again for all the well wishes and comments. It has been so nice reading them all. There is nothing like a babe to bring people together!

Happy Father's Day to all the dad's in your lives as well. I hope you all have a chance to honor them some how.

Until Next Time - Hugs, Grammy Linda

Friday, June 19, 2009

Worth The Wait!!

Well this Grammy is so tired she almost can't get another woo hoo out but I'll try...
WOO HOO! I finally got to hold my precious girl. OH MY there is NOTHING like it and so worth the wait! She is just so sweet and it feels so good to have her in my arms. Ang has a big family so it was a revolving door at the hospital today but I still managed to get some kisses and snuggles in. I had first dibs!!

She and mom are still recieving antibiotics but are otherwise doing great!!

Yups, she knew she was safe and very very loved in her Grammy Linda's arms.
And a very tired Grammy managed a smile for the camera. This is what it looks like when you have about 3 hours sleep and sat in a straight chair or paced the floors all night.
A very proud Grammy with her firstborn and his first born. Another sleep deprived Grammy with her 7th grandchild. And a sleep deprived Grampy with his baby girl's first baby girl.
And her Auntie Jen couldn't wait to get there after work and hold Liliana. Auntie Jen has a new job and couldn't take time off so it was killing her to have to wait until this evening to go to the hospital.
I can tell these two are going to have a special bond.Ang is not quite ready for a public debut because her poor face was incredibly swollen after pushing so hard so we'll give her a chance to rest before we show pics of her and her sweet baby girl. And Grampy David had other duties to attend to today so pics of him with Liliana will follow. We plan to go up to the hospital tomorrow and get some more hugs and kisses and snuggles in before we head to Jay's house to spend some time with Brady.

And thanks to the dozens and dozens of emails and messages and comments. Jay had his laptop at the hospital today so I was able to read a lot of the messages left here on my blog and the emails too when Ang's friends and relatives were holding Liliana. I read many of them to Jay and Ang as well and we are all so very moved and touched. I will never get around to everyone of you, but please know, every single message message brought another warm fuzzy feeling and a tear or two. Good tears!! Even many of my regular followers who don't often comment took time out to send good wishes. It really means so much to me to be able to share this very special time with all of you. I will be printing out those comments for Liliana's scrapbooks so that she can someday see how many incredibly kind and good people were following her story. THANK YOU!

Now this tired Grammy is off to dreamland with visions of that sweet baby dancing in her head.
Until Next Time - Hugs, Grammy Linda

She's Here!!

Liliana Lee - born 6/19/09 at 4:19 AM 8 pounds, 2 oz, 20 inches long.

Look at that head of dark hair!! Isn't she the cutest baby you have ever seen? This was taken on Jay's cell just before Liliana was whisked away to the nursery.

I got to the hospital at around 7 PM and was in the labor room with Jay, Ang and her mom Lori for several hours. Ang had an epidural and was quite comfy and slept through a great deal of her labor fortunately. At around 2 AM Angela spiked a temp and it was time to push at that point and the staff made me leave. I had to wait in the waiting room alone down several halls and through 2 sets of locked doors - that place is like Fort Knox and they sure don't make it comfy or easy for grandparents to wait. (DH was at Jay's house overnight Brady sitting). Finally at around 4:30 ish, Lori came to get me and once we got back to Ang's room the staff stopped me and wouldn't let me in so I had to go back down the hall and wait alone again. Finally around 5:30 Jay was able to come out to see me. By then Liliana was in the nursery and would be for some time so I decided to head home when it was clear I wouldn't see her any time soon. Both mom and baby needed some more fluids and antibiotics for the temp.

I just talked to Jay and Angela's temp is gone and both she and the baby are going to have their baths and they should have the baby soon. I am going to take another quick nap before I shower and head back up. Hopefully, I will see her for myself finally and take lots of pics!!

This very tired Grammy Linda is signing off for now!!

Until Next Time - Hugs, Grammy Linda

Thursday, June 18, 2009


This is it! I just sat down in a restaurant with my friend Jenn to eat dinner and Jay called. Angela is having contractions and I am awaiting word from him to head to the hospital. I will update as soon as I can! Oh I can't stand it - it is so exciting - I am shaking! Please say a prayer that labor is not too difficult and that both Angela and Liliana do well. Thanks so much!!

WOO HOO! The next time I am back, you can officially call me Grammy Linda!!

Until Next Time - Hugs, Grammy Linda

PS I won't be around to read comments so it is shut off. We can chat later!!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009


This sign is on the fireplace above the mantel in our family room which is the space under both our dining room and living room. It is a nice big space with full windows on the front and a slider to a patio on the back. It is not a dark dingy basement room at all. Still, I have been struggling with this room for about two years now. I have mentioned before that it was paneled in the 70's when the house was built. In the last 2 years I was able to convince DH that that paneling REALLY is outdated and so it is now painted 2 soft colors. Powell Buff on the top and Wilmington Tan on the bottom. That sort of solved one problem.
Because it is in the lower level, there is a shelf running around the 3 outside walls. If you aren't familiar with split level homes, that shelf is actually the top of the foundation. Below the shelf, behind the paneling is concrete. That shelf makes placing furniture very hard. Nothing can be placed flush against the wall. And while it is nice to have it to display some things, too much of anything is not good. So I struggle with that. And there are some other structural issues I struggle with.
And then there is furniture. All the things that don't really fit into my decor upstairs. They are just not what I would pick out today even though they are all quality pieces. 3 of them are even Johnston Benchworks made and so they are staying.
But as I was tweaking down here this week and adding some of my new treasures to the room as well as making room for a high chair, I had to smile because there are some really wonderful things about the room too! What I love the most is the fireplace made of reclaimed brick. Now it doesn't have a wonderful colonial paneled surround that would be my first choice, but I am OK with that. Maybe someday. But it does have a mantel shelf that DH added when we first moved in. And I love the black iron doors. And I have some really wonderful things in this room that really mean a great deal to me. Like the wicker rocker in the corner that was my Nany's. And on it is the quilt my SIL gave me for Christmas. And in the bowl on the coffee table is the soy candle my prim friend Karen (PrimKarlee) gave me. The only candles I burn. And on the hearth is a church birdhouse a school family gave me. (Our school was in a church.) And on those iron doors is the prim heart that my friend prim friend Bonnie(Prims4me) gave me, made by my blogging friend Karen of Our Colonial Home blog. And see that black double candle holder in the corner, that came from Sweden with David's Nana.(It was white then!) And on that shelf next to the fireplace is this stitchery made by my blogging friend Colleen, from And Baby Makes Five. She sent it to me as soon as I announced I was going to be a Grammy months ago. It says "What happens at Grammy's, stays at Grammy's". Perfect!
And lookey here! See the crow stitchery, another gift from Bonnie, made by Karen. And yet another Karen, my sweet friend from from Liberty House (formerly My Yellow Farmhouse) is represented here in the penny quilt flower tray I won from her blog giveaway last year. I love how the colors in the tray are echoed in the crow stitchery and the heart. And this still life was painted by my mom many years ago. And my son gave me this piece of salt glazed stoneware many years ago.And this flag was a gift from one of my wonderful teachers when I left school. And my dear friend Pat gave me the redware plate many years ago.
My dear friend Jean gave me this yellowware pitcher many years ago as well. And I could go on and on about the rest of the things in that room that were handed down to me, or gifted to me by family and friends. So many things that mean so much to me. So even though I might struggle with some of the elements of that room, I still get a warm and cozy feeling when I go down there and use the 12 foot bar to fold my laundry, or when our extended family gathers for appetizers and cheer before we head upstairs for a meal.
And now there is that high chair, and there will soon be a port a crib and other baby paraphernalia as well. Yes, it is a real family room once again.
And so now we come back to the sign. It really does say it all.
Family and friends are tied together with heartstrings.
And that is just how it should be!

If you want a good read that will tug at your heartstrings with a very happy ending, make sure to do whatever it take to get the summer issue of Mercantile Gatherings. I took a drive to one of my favorite Prim Shops, Homestead Primitives in Fitchburg, MA just to pick up my copy today and I have to tell you that reading about our dear blogging friend Jen from Taylor's*Farmhouse*Attic brought me to tears! To say Jen has been through a lot to get to where she is today is a real understatement. More than most of us will ever face in our life time. It really puts things in perspective and I am truly honored to say I know her.
Congratulations Jen on the wonderful article. Your home looks wonderful. I am so glad you chose the road you did so that we could meet in blogland!!

Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio
To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me.. It is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:

I saw that headline on a post in another blog the other day and I loved it so I thought I would post it. But first I decided to research Regina Brett. Well, come to find out, she is indeed a writer for the Plain Dealer, but she is not 90 years old. Not even close! LOL As with too many things on the Internet, they get exaggerated or twisted as they are sent around the globe. I am guessing some of you have seen this in your mailbox with the same claim about Regina's age just as the other blogger received it that way too.

To see the original column, click HERE. No matter how it comes to you though, as an email with the 90 year old info thrown in, or as they were actually written, I think these life lessons are worth reading. Over and over again. That's why some of them may have appeared on my blog in the past. I hope you will find at least of few worth REALLY thinking about today.

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Life is too short for long pity parties. Get busy living, or get busy dying.
17. You can get through anything if you stay put in today.
18. A writer writes. If you want to be a writer, write.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: "In five years, will this matter?"
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
36. Growing old beats the alternative - dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood. Make it memorable.
38. Read the Psalms. They cover every human emotion.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
42. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
43. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
44. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
45. The best is yet to come.
46. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
47. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
48. If you don't ask, you don't get.
49. Yield.
50. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.
Baby watch update!
Angela saw her Dr. Monday afternoon and nothing has changed. Liliana is sitting very very low so Ang is feeling a lot of pressure but nothing else has changed. That little girl is just not ready to come out yet!! And believe me, you will know when she is because it won't a few sentences at the end of a post.
It will be THE post!!

Until Next Time - Hugs, Linda